Words From A Poet: Letting Go Doesn’t Get Easier But We Get Stronger

Creating an adoption plan for our firstborn, Carly, was a major challenge for us. Tyler and I were only 15

Creating an adoption plan for our firstborn, Carly, was a major challenge for us. Tyler and I were only 15 when we found out about being pregnant. Anxiety quickly took over me, wondering how I would raise a child with someone who was just my boyfriend at the time.

After joining the cast on MTV’s 16 and Pregnant, Tyler and I made the decision to set up an adoption plan for our daughter on the way. And, looking back on that journey, I am grateful for it being aired because I believe that it gave viewers a true and authentic look into how adoption really works.

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Birth parents go through a period of grief and loss, that’s fairly obvious to assume. Carly is 13 now and, while the years continue to pass, thinking about the “could’ve been” moments doesn’t get easier.

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Brandon Davis and Teresa Davis are the adoptive parents of Carly who agreed to an open adoption plan with us. As she grew up were able to have in-person visits, every two years, over a three-day period.

 

 
 
 
 
 
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Below is a poem from Tyler, coping with the heartbreak that comes with adoption.

I never wanted to let you go, understand

I wanted to wrap you in my arms forever

Like your fingers around my pinky

In the palm of your little hand

I reminisce of your beautiful face

Swaddled in a that baby blanket

So innocent…& guess what?

I still have that baby blanket…

It’s folded in the chest by my bed

& sometimes I unravel it

Just to put it around my neck

& pretend it’s you that I’m holding instead

Because everyday I wake up with you beating in my heart & consuming my head

 

 
 
 
 
 
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